Post-grad life has its ups and downs. Yesterday was sort of a down-up, and I wasn’t sure what today would be until I woke up this morning and decided to spend time with my God, open my Bible, and pray.
Why’d I do this? Because that’s what a good Christian does. Just kidding. Honestly, I’ve been having trust issues and I won’t trust God if I don’t spend time with Him. So I need to spend time with him. Always.
Anyways. Why the trust issues? Because YOU KNOW that everybody and their mother has been asking me, “What’s next? Are you here to stay?” And I’ve been looking at my future and completely panicking because everyone expects me to know what’s next, but I can’t friggin see. Entrepreneurship is scary. I don’t know what’s next. I don’t know where the money’s going to come from. I don’t know who’s gonna stick around. I don’t know who I’ll become. Cue Free Fallin’.
And I’ve been rehearsing this script in my head–“You’re never going to make enough money to support yourself. You’re never gonna find work you love. You’re never gonna be a real adult. And on top of all of that, you’re going to be alone forever.” Most of the time, these thoughts slip in under the radar–they seem so true, so I don’t think to fact check them.
But last night I heard a great message about transitions. In times of transition, I’m prone to thinking the worst of what’s ahead and to giving way to fear. But Mike reminded me that our lives will follow the direction of what we rehearse–whether that be lies from Satan or the truth of God from his Word. And I realized that instead of repeating, ‘I’m a mess. I don’t know what I’m doing. I’m going to fail at everything,” I should be rehearsing a different script–one that’s true. So here it goes:
Truth #1: I have a purpose. My purpose is to love and glorify God with my life. And my God will never give me a purpose that He will not prepare me for. His divine power has given us everything we need for a godly life. (2 Peter 1:3) God has given me a purpose and He wants me to succeed.
Truth #2: I’m not stuck. I have choices! I get to choose–I get to choose life. I get to love my God, listen to his voice, and hold fast to him, because He is my life, my breath, my everything. (Exodus 30: 20)
Truth #3: God is always with me. God’s presence in our lives is guaranteed, but God’s promises are conditional. God says, “I will be with you wherever you go, but how far you go is entirely up to you.” God has given us the land. It is done. But we’ve got to walk there. We’ve got to cross the river. We’ve got to take the land. And God will be with us; He will go before us–this is the promise when we love and trust in Him. (the book of Joshua)
These truths may not be profound, but they are the script I choose to rehearse. Post-grad and pre-glorious life is not always glamorous, but it can be beautiful. There is beauty in messy transitions when we choose to trust God through it all.
What script have you been rehearsing? Let me know! I’d love to help you rewrite yours and hear your thoughts on improving mine (: