When Life Feels Blurry

Life rarely brings the clarity we want it to.

That’s what I thought when I saw this photograph.

It’s blurry and tilted but it’s probably my favorite photo of the two of us ever. It speaks to me the thousand words everybody says it should.

It tells me that a lack of clarity does not disqualify us from joy. Uncertainty doesn’t take away from the fact that there is a good life to live. This photo is off kilter and imperfect and it’s not what any photographer would have planned, but it’s not a picture I’m ever going to throw out.

And I think in life, we’re all too quick to get life back into focus. We overlook precious moments in our uncomfortability with the blurriness of our plans. And there are seasons of our lives that we’ve certainly wished we could throw out. Honestly, I’m in one of those seasons now. But the blurry seasons can be the best seasons if we let them be. They can be full of joy and whimsy and hope–it’s all determined by our perspectives.

Our messy, imperfect, uncertain days and weeks and months–they’re not trash. They are gifts, just as the neat, planned, and secure days are.

And through it all, we have a choice. We can choose to put our trust in human beings, in ourselves, in potential employers, in our broken families–all of whom make plans that will ultimately come to nothing, or we can choose to put our trust in God who remains faithful forever, who promises to be our Help and Advocate and Sustainer. We can choose to be worry warts and live in constant stress, or we can choose to praise God all our lives, the Maker of heaven and earth, our number one fan and the man with the ultimate plan. (Psalm 146)

 

“In their hearts humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps.” (Proverbs 16:9)

 

(A special thank you to Olivia for being the kind of friend who can also appreciate a blurry photo and who sticks with me through the blurry seasons!)

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